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The Ire Of Others

All it takes is for someone near me to appear to be angry or upset and I immediately go into fight, flight or freeze mode. They don’t even have to be upset or angry at all, they just have to appear that way. My heart threatens to pound itself out of my chest, I holdContinue reading “The Ire Of Others”

Looking For A Cure Where There Is None

For a very long time I thought I could cure my then undiagnosed PTSD, borderline personality disorder, depression and anxiety but there is no cure. There is only treatment and therapy to manage triggers and symptoms. Healing from trauma looks a lot different than I thought it did. Healing is not linear, some days itContinue reading “Looking For A Cure Where There Is None”

Oh, The Waiting…

I have appointments all set up with my dentist to have all of my remaining top teeth and the bottom four front teeth extracted in January and for the dentures starting in March. By mid-may I will have a lovely smile but until then I will be pretty much toothless as I will only haveContinue reading “Oh, The Waiting…”

So I Didn’t Meet My Goal…Again

So I didn’t meet my goal of losing five pounds (instead of ten) in the last six weeks. The good news is I didn’t gain anything either. There are a few reasons I’ve been stuck at this weight. I spent four of those six weeks not doing much of anything as I was still recoveringContinue reading “So I Didn’t Meet My Goal…Again”

I’m Fine, Everything Is Fine

That is if fine were an acronym for fucked up, insecure, neurotic, and emotional. I have more than a few stressors in my life at the moment and they are weighing heavily on me. For starters, I need to have most of my remaining teeth pulled and get a full set of top dentures andContinue reading “I’m Fine, Everything Is Fine”

A Second Opinion Was Worth It

I went to the dentist recently and he told me I would have to have all of my remaining teeth pulled and get a full set of dentures. He thought it would be best if I had it done at the hospital since there were so many coming out. And since his office doesn’t makeContinue reading “A Second Opinion Was Worth It”