So I didn’t meet my goal of losing five pounds (instead of ten) in the last six weeks. The good news is I didn’t gain anything either. There are a few reasons I’ve been stuck at this weight.
I spent four of those six weeks not doing much of anything as I was still recovering from a bladder sling surgery. I couldn’t take my dog for a walk or use my exercise bike for a total of eight weeks. Now that I’m back to full physical activity I should be able to drop a few pounds in two months (my next weigh-in). Returning to regular activities will be a slow process as I have chronic pain issues in my neck and low back but I am determined.
I have a bad sugar habit I struggle with, especially when it comes to chocolate. Chocolate is my kryptonite. If I’m to succeed in losing ten pounds I’ll need to make a few more dietary and lifestyle changes. Less take-out, and less sugar, that includes beer and wine; and more physical activity.
I’m going to make an appointment with my doctor for a medication review because I believe some of my meds make me gain or retain weight and I wonder if the use of them can be discontinued. I’m tolerating my stressors and triggers fairly well and I feel more stable than I have in a long time, which I attribute to years of therapy more than the medications. Even though I feel better I’m not about to stop my meds on my own, I am well aware of the dangers of doing so.
There is generally a hint of truth in what my inner mean girl says but she’s such a bitch about it. For instance, I was eating some chocolate the other day and my inner mean girl said something like, “no wonder you’re so fat, look at you eating that chocolate like a little piggy.” Pretty mean, right? I’ve learned to respond differently than I have in the past. My reply goes something like this, “eating chocolate is holding me back from reaching my weight loss goal. I’ll need to cut back or cut it out completely.”
At the end of the day, there are a couple of factors affecting my weight loss (or lack thereof) and I was able to treat myself with kindness and compassion rather than judgement and cruelty. I will meet my current goal of ten pounds in two months.
My Phoenix Rising 