Recovering From A Setback

A setback is what I had in my post That Old Dialogue Living In My Head. Today is looking better and I am getting back on track.

I need to let go of the desire to control the outcome at all costs. It wouldn’t be helpful in the long run. Right now, I need to give my biological daughter her space and time to think without any pressure or expectation. It is hard and I really don’t want to but this is the part of healing that takes work. A meaningful relationship with her is more important than giving into the temptation of demanding an answer right away. I must be patient.

There were moments when it was all I could do to remind myself this was a setback, it was not my whole world crumbling. My biological daughter’s need for some time to think isn’t unreasonable and it isn’t the end of my relationship with her. She didn’t say good-bye forever.

I had to remind myself that others enjoy looking at, reading and listening to my creations. My art is not crap. I need to keep creating art and exploring different mediums and remember I don’t have to like my own art for others to enjoy it.

It was a rough few days but I am coming through on the other side and even started a new painting. I’ve started to clear the dishes and the laundry will get done in the next day or two, we still have plenty of clean clothes, towels and sheets.